"What have you been doing?"

This was the Saturday after finals. Finally home, I crashed on the couch accidentally. I woke up at whatever time in the middle of the night and tried to make it to my bed. I had a thought going through my head over and over, like a lesson from God, and I thought "I'll remember it tomorrow, where's my phone so I can go to bed." (Phone's my alarm clock.) So I staggard around the room searching for it, and attempting to get my eyes open enough to see something. I couldn't find it until I realized that this was probably God trying to tell me to focus, go write this down. So I went to the computer desk found a piece of paper and wrote down whatever it was. Not remembering what any of it was til the next morning, then I found this:

God said, "So what have you been doing?"
'Well, I had finals."
"So what have you been doing?"
"I had finals."
"Sorry, not what time was it, but what have you been doing with the extra couple of weeks I have given you?"

I realized so many things. That I had shifted my mindset into finals time and not fully embraced what I could have been doing for God in that time. That I had began to get so caught up in the moment and situations that I missed many opportunities to love and serve people. Not to get caught up in that time.

The big thing that was further implemented was how temporary things are here. How self-focused we are. "What have you been doing with the extra couple of weeks?" "Extra... weeks" Wow. It's funny how we think we have the right to live another day. We go to bed expecting, almost demanding, like somehow we've earned the right to wake up the next morning. Our own little world all revolves around us, but with 6.4 million little worlds revolving around each other, whose going to revolve around the sun/son and change someone else's world. "Extra weeks" - So many times when a child or young person dies, we ask say there time was cut short. Well that's kind of crap. Why do we ask why their time was cut short? when we should be asking Why is our time been extended? Don't get me wrong, I have lost friends my age and younger that have died, it's not something to brush off and yes it hurts. But if we want to talk about fair, it's not fair that our lives continue to go on day after day. We have been given a gift, an unearned gift, one in which we should be extremely grateful that we have the opportunity to live an extra day. Today might be that extra day. Today is the extra day, but tomorrow may not be. Obviously, if we have extra time it's for a reason. Every minute we are allowed to live has an explanation to it. So if we're part of a bigger plan, are we doing what we could be doing to follow it. It's like the Sanctus Real song "Whatever Your Doing (Something Heavenly)" says "Am I doing everything to follow your will, or just climbing aimlessly over these hills?"

So I guess the question is asked, what are we doing with the extra time we've been given?